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All my life I have only known one home. I shared this space in the Pine Barrens of New Jersey with my mother, father, and brother through all stages of life. When I left home and moved away from my family unit, the sense of mental comfort and stasis I felt within that confinement burst open. Similarly, I found that when I returned to this space, my experiences of it had changed. While this was still a familiar place, it somehow felt strange to me. I am interested in the way in which family can be a means of representing oneself in terms of histories, experiences, and memories. Four Eggs and a Hummingbird illustrates ambiguity. The images blur the line between fact and imagination, similar to how memory bends, molds, and fluctuates, complicating truthfulness. Constructed with a large format view camera using color film, these images challenge the notion of authenticity often attributed to family photography. Using the dense forested region of the Pine Barrens as my foundation, I explore interior and exterior relationships between my family members and myself. Questions arise about who I am as a person outside of my family unit, and what burdens do I carry by keeping certain memories from my family members. Through the photographs, I am facing, preserving, and challenging my memories.